This is a partial post to my Ex. You know who you are. There are too many word that I not told you in the amount of time that we have not seen each other. I miss your bear hugs, your sweet smile (don’t say you can’t smile cause you have a smile that can brighten up my day) and your cooking. Yes although you are not the best home cook…but at least I have seen your grown in the kitchen by experimenting with tofu and cauliflower sabzi. And every meal you cook for me is a memory I will remember.
I have so much that I want to say to you personally, before all this shit happened, but I know that it’s going to cause heartbreak for us both. But without heartbreak, we don’t grow as individuals and as partners. I believe that we will come out stronger because we have put this behind us. You didn’t really give me a chance to explain my point of view…my thoughts and what I could do to makes things work. Knowing you, once you make a decision, no one can change it.
When we are out of isolation, I wish you could give me a chance to figure things out between us cause our thoughts and feelings are heightened during this lonely time. I want you to be honest and tell me how you feel, although you hate to see me cry and you don’t like being weak, I want to be the one you tell everything to. I know that it’s a challenge, but it’s a challenge that I’m willing fight.  I know you don’t feel the same, but can you try for me?
Today, I kept staring at my phone, and wishing that it could have been you that sent me a message or called. But none. I’m fighting every will in me not to call you because I don’t want to be that clingy Ex that won’t let go. Our feelings for each other haven’t changed, so why are we separated?
I have a lot on my mind that you know I want to share with you, whether it be from work or home, and plus I want to share all my quarantine food photos and let you constantly call me when you are at the store because you are unsure of which noodles to buy for stir fry.

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I made white bread for the first time and it was super easy. I recommend this recipe for first time bread makers. The only thing that the written recipe doesn’t say, is to warm the milk/liquid mixture before putting yeast into it.

Kimchi makes everything taste better, even when your fridge only have basic ingredients. The zucchini was going bad and I figured I can use that, along with carrots, rice and egg to make myself lunch on the weekend. It was delicious, obviously but I was in a rush to cook the rice and they could have cooked longer in the pot before making fried rice.

Growing everything that has seeds in it seems to be my thing when I’m in quarantine. I’ve started to grow apples, avocados and even mung beans. Within 5-6 days, the mung beans turned into short tiny bean sprouts. Although they aren’t as long and fat as the ones you get at the grocery store, they still did the job. I made bimbimbap with the bean sprouts.